Dismal day
Grey cloud cast
In the early morning light
She rises to the sadness of the past
Tears fill her eyes
As she secretly wishes
The brilliant sun would shine
Replacing the clouds in there opacity
Murky morning dew
Makes her face the pain
Deep within
Hidden
The shadows of there images
Haunting
Erasing the gentleness of those whom hold her heart
Reminders drifting as sheer
Swift thoughts
They whisper in her ear
Focusing on casting out all her fears
But she drowns in the silence of her mind
Voices fade
She can not escape
Her heart half full
Half empty
Broken π
Silence π€«
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Not always a bright past but a bright future awaits!
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Agreed sweetheart π thank you! It’s closing the doors and opening new ones β€
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Some bitter poignant sadness and regret there. Regret can turn to resentment Angel. Don’t go there, you would only be torturing yourself. πΉ
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Hi love π regret of my past is there but I look forward to making up the years lost with love from those who REALLY love me π and those whom CALL ME angel πππ
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Angel, you are the first and only woman I have ever given that name to. The first to deserve it. π
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Now I am in awe humbled grateful and totally adore you β€ thank you jack!!! You know your special to me ππ
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Ahhh, Nikki!! So sorry you have memories of the past haunting you!!! Been there, done that!! They can really grip you at times, to be sure!! So glad to know that you have so many of us who Love You and always send you positive energy and keep you in our thoughts and prayers to bring you joy and happiness! These memories will take some time to lock up deep in your heart. They can also be hard to keep there at times. They have a sly and sneaky way of going Rogue at times and show up in your dreams or daydreaming moments!!! I have found that it helps me to write about them as you have here and then to refocus on how much better I am in the present and to be happy and grateful for where my journey has taken me!!
I know you have so much ahead to be happy and thrilled about and it will come and you will learn how to chain down those old memories, thoughts and feelings so they do not break free and intrude on your life unless you summon them to help you remember why you have so much to be happy and thankful for!!
Hope you are having a happy day despite the clouds and gray!!
xoxo
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Thanks chuck π yes fleeting moments of the past do emerge and I try to dismiss the 13 years that could have ruined me had I not been tough little cookie …for some they never get out i was blessed to have the medical knowledge to know what was happening and the courage to dismiss love and love myself more π thanks for the beautiful comment β€ unconditional friends and love are hard to find …recently two very close friends came back into my life and I cant say enough how thankful I am for that!! One I just saw the other night and I feel blessed and like myself again…one has known me since 14 loves me and i got the chance by a great fortune to see him while he was here for a week…the other who has known me who also loves me is working on plan for us to catch up …i love them both and thank God I got the chance to tell them again and tell them sorry for letting someone dictate me keeping our friendships at bay….never again….
Hugs ππ
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I have no doubts that you will find a way and place to keep those moments and memories chained up. Yes, you are one tough cookie!! Ha!!
So happy you have reconnected with unconditional friends that love you!! They are rare gems for sure!! Life opens doors you never even knew existed??? People cross our paths for a reason??? I do hope that you will hold to your – never again to any who seek to control or mold you instead of letting you be you!!! But then since
you have been – RELEASED from your cage I have faith that you will only be you from here on out!!
LAH
xoxo
ππππΉ
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People do cross our paths for a reason! And each is unique and special…i am quite busy I am still finding my balance between 2 jobs my 2 teens and my social and blogging life π its a lot to juggle …the chains will never bound me again…and yes I adore people who love me unconditionally β€ as I love them back as such β€
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Very heart stirring π. Lovely imagery Nichole ππ Sending hug. π€
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Thanks lia π the past in its ugliness always rears its ugly past..this is based on 13 years of pure hell that sometimes reminds me of all i have been through π the future is bright π but to embrace is to face how I got there …hugs and love to u too ππ
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Ahhhh yes the past sometimes sneaks up to haunt the present… I hear you. π Well done writing though it, and thank you π€ πΈπ·π»βοΈ
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Agree lia π I appreciate this beautiful compliment from a beautiful poet β€
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Awwww thank you so much!!! you are so kind. Likewise to you, lovely! π€©πππ
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I hope you have a beautiful day lia π your a sweetheart π
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Same to you Nichole π₯°ππ
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a post worth reading over and over. Wonderful
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Wow honored and humbled by this ππ€ thank you sweetheart
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Great strong post π€©
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Hi lovely π thank you!!!
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Your welcome loveky how are you π₯°
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I am pretty good love π I am going out tonight with my ex husband who I spent 20 years with who I am still best buddies with our daughter and his girlfriend who i also have known forever and a friend I have known since 14 who I haven’t seen in years…we are going out for drinks and dinner π how are u π
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O thats so good that you and your ex have a great band and best buddies. Love that .so enjoy your night out π€©ππ€©π.im good lovely today was relax day with watching a movie
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Yes my ex husband and I have been friends for almost 30 years i met him when I was 18 …glad your relaxing are u off tomorrow? I need a movie night lol but I work starting tomorrow until fri π two days are 10 to 11 hr days but I am happy about it…
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Tomorrow free to ,it was a shark movie i love shark movie s .but am scared to lol
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Yes like jaws movies π₯ awesome and scary lol π ππ I like drama movies and comedies to some degree horror movies around Halloween are good as long as there scary minus the gore π β€ i don’t like any bloody movies the world is too cruel to watch it on TV
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Thats so to honey dont like that to much blood ,i see jaws many times and now there are good movies to about White shark
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I will have to check it out darling enjoy your movie hugs and kisses π
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Hug and kisses back enjoy your evening ππ₯°π
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You too beautiful thank you πβ€π
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Never give up!
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Never!! Thank you π π
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Yes maβam! Youβre welcome!
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