An Introduction to my fabulous and chaotic world!

My name is nichole my family and friends refer to me as princess :), nikki , and sparkles! 🌸 I wear glitter everything and nothing shines more then a beautiful array of sparkles..I love to shimmer and shine and light up the world!!πŸ’‹ Now who wouldn’t want a little sparkle in there life πŸ’– I also have been called recently, Angel and The Italian princess as well as Jersey!!

Today i am at the young age of 49 okay so that’s middle age but 40 something in 2020 is young, hip, fulfilling, stressful and chaotic, but that,s okay everyday is a blessing! My kids are grown and i am ready to have some fun!! Life is beautiful although it comes with many obstacles, challenges, and immense struggles but mostly and importantly life is full of rewards. Myself i went back to school in my 30’s to earn a degree in the medical field. After countless hours of studying with a school age son and two toddlers I became a certified medical assistant and worked in dermatology for over 8 years. I assisted in surgical procedures and met some wonderful patients. I can honestly say it is amazing how your patients become such a part of you and your life, they touch and embrace you daily it is a very rewarding career. Loving and leaving this career was a very hard decision one which i had to make after a lot of thought, consideration, and circumstances that were out of my control. But more on that later. I have three beautiful children and three of the most precious grand babies! I’am the oldest of 5 siblings. Some of which make life so much better and are there if i need them and likewise. One brother and 3 sisters, many wonderful nieces and nephews, Godchildren, and so many and i mean MANY extending family as of a Italian descent, there are so many cousins and second cousins i could write a page on just that. God has blessed me. I also love the color pink, love pizza, fine red wine, sunflowers and my dad. In my spare time i enjoy writing poetry and blogging. Writing has become one of the strongest passions i have ever had!

My Oldest son is 26 he is not only successful but strong, intelligent, and a handsome man who also happens to be a wonderful father. This boy i raised has became this man. In the blink of a eye i went from changing diapers to him receiving his bachelor’s to become a investment banker. Obtaining a job straight out of college with a huge firm..At this time he is raising a school age son along with a preschool daughter and a newborn with the help of his girlfriend Emily. My son is truly success at its finest. I am a proud mommy to say the least!

My second son is almost 20. He is a wonderful, beautiful young man. He has had to work very hard to achieve his goals he has severe ADHD making things very challenging for not only him but the family. It has been a long hard road and one we are still riding. ADHD shows no mercy thus one of the reasons i left my career. More on that later as well. If i can say one thing with the heartbreak that ADHD can cause my son is much more then ADHD . He is charismatic and loving and his goal is to own his own business he has thrifty knowledge on buying, selling, trading, i forsee a luderative business in his future. He is also a self taught guitar player and that just blows me away his talent is unbelievable. And let it be known when he smiles and is happy it fulfills my heart.

Then there is my little pretty princess my only daughter. She is a angel and 18 living in florida working in health and wellness as well as attending college to become both a nurse and possibly a physician. She is intelligent and wise above her years she went from sophomore year to senior passing over junior year with honors she works very hard to uphold a high GPA. My daughter is about success and academics and as many sports as she can play. Since she was 5 she has wanted to be a surgeon i can see that the path she is on is one of success and admiration.

My grand babies are 7 and almost 5 as well as the beautiful new addition little Wyatt ahh let me say they are the epitome of perfection! My life is full of joy since God blessed me with being a mom-mom.

We have a dog named harley old man that is closing in at 14. Needless to say i’am not a big dog lover but i am however a big animal lover.

My goal for this blog is to talk about life, love, divorce, career challenges, kids with challenges, esp. but not limited to ADHD. Being 40 middle age but fun, flirty, fantastic, a working mother and just holding up in today’s balancing act juggling all of the above. There are also many more topics, life experiences some good and some that will definitely intrigue you. This is my first time sharing my life i hope to take you on this journey with me. Hang on tight and enjoy the ride.

She Dreams Of Paris Written By Nichole Sulpizio πŸ”₯πŸ‘„

She dreams of paris



Euphonious voice

Like sentimental ballads

Playing in her heart

Dancing upon the cobbled lane streets

Full of ivy

Under her red umbrella

Smells of liden and jasmine

Sun is setting

Her black heels wet

She sips her cabernet

Thoughts race

Her heart pounding like a drum

She dreams of him

She dreams of paris!

Copyright Β© 2023 Nichole Sulpizio
All Rights Reserved

Watch “Best Motivational Speech Compilation EVER #27 – IMMORTAL | 30-Minutes of the Best Motivation” on YouTube

Great motivational speech for those trying to achieve there dreams!

Over the past few years, I have learned many things about myself, my inner voice, my determination, my courage, and my goal oriented personality! I had always known I was strong-willed, πŸ’ͺ had purpose, and not a pushover in any sense of the word. However, I let my kindness and gentle heart overpower my intuition and path. Sometimes, when we are younger and / or in circumstances we feel we don’t have much say or control, we limit our possibilities and prolong our suffering! I woke one day and said, “Enough is Enough” to the destructive, toxic, fake, and grotesque relationships I was entangled with. For not only myself but for all of you out there, it can vary. These destructive relationships can be family, spouses, employers, friendships, really anyone you give time or worth to! I believe once you see and recognize your self worth and respect boundaries that NOONE should be ever able to cross with you, you limit and rid yourself of people who manipulate, critique, criticize or undermind you as a person, or they think your just plain naive to there indiscretions!

Learning my gut was my most powerful source as it was my first step in moving forward to pursue dreams and goals I knew were overdue and calling for me loudly and clearly! Sometimes, against all adversity, we find the most strength πŸ’ͺ I learned to trust the process and let God direct me as I also found strength in making my kids, “MY WHY!”

To the haters, the people who tried to keep me from my dreams by using the relationship as some kind of tool for control, to the family and friends, that never listened to my side but listened to the gossip and the slander any and all of that. Any I was supposed to count on that held conversations behind my back pretending to be for me but where clearly trying to minimize me in anyway to build themselves up out of jealousy and manipulation. Some conversations have come to light, and the I love you as fake and blackened as your soul! Some of you helped to destroy relationships I had, it’s okay, see, I know, God knows and you know, truth always comes to light, good will always win in the end, and I pity your insecurities and I value the ones in my life that believed in me and watched me turn away from darkness and find the light! I want to thank all of who said, you won’t do it, who stood in my way until I moved you, who caused chaos and rucas, it made me a fighter, it made me get rid of all toxic garbage and people undeserving of my time, and made me mostly, A WINNER!

I hope my my words and experiences will save someone else in a similar circumstance who is trying to pursue and live their truth, dreams, and life in any way! Remember, it’s always better to surround yourself with a few who are TRULY FOR YOU, then a ton of people who are OBVIOUSLY AGAINST YOU! Listen to your gut, and pay attention to your intuition it’s your strongest ally, as is God! Be who you are supposed to be and work like hell! Don’t worry about the naysayers, the fake and toxic family and friends, or the significant other undermining your intelligence! Go get whatever you want in life, as you get one, live it, love it, and work like hell to have it!! My kids are the reason I am going where I am going!! Xoxo ❀️

Gaslighting Is Abuse!

When people think of abuse, they assume it is physical when in reality abuse comes in many obvious and non obvious ways. We all are familiar with the obvious forms of abuse but most are unfamiliar with a tactical form such as GASLIGHTING!

Unfortunately, for me I have had the unpleasurable experience of this form of abuse for over 8 years until I mustered up the strength to say enough is enough and leave the toxic hell I subjected myself too for way too long!

To help someone else out there I came across this list and figured I’d share it. This list I found on yahoo was such a accurate description of what I went through and I wanted to share to help someone else out there recognize the signs. Please and I quote this is a list I came upon it is not mine! And remember if you or anyone you know is suffering some form of abuse get out safely and if you can’t locate a domestic abuse line and or your closest police authorities!

Remember you are not alone, get out and get help! Regain your control and sanity and put abusers where they belong!



What was supposed to Break me, BUILT me!

I fear, mediocrity, boredom, and regret more than death itself! I took back my life and flourish in everything!

The graveyard is full of wasted potential they say, I would have been one if I had not broken the chains that bound me, instead, some will rot there in padded cells in the threshold of torture called hell, as I said before dancing with Satan for eternity!

Rock out to this great song on this wintery Saturday! Happy Saturday All!

I may have made too many changes to this post and accidentally disabled the comment section. Sorry, fellow bloggers! But either way the point and message is sound πŸ’‹πŸ”₯❀️

2023 Here I come! πŸ’‹πŸ”₯❀️

2023 is almost here and will be the year I start to do open 🎀 nights for my poetry, to retrieve feedback and speak the very words that proudly flow through my veins!

Looking back on my past I am so thrilled to be working my ass off building a business, MY OWN BUSINESS, and through the grind and hours I have already accomplished so much! I am also excited to get the opportunity to get out there and give myself a name, I don’t have to be huge to be proud, nor do I have to boast about my accomplishments, however the ones who tried to influence me and distract me to fail, have not succeeded!

A winner always wins its a mind set! And every dog has its day, some in the works as we speak πŸ™‚

The cyberstalker who has nothing better to do in life then be obsessed with mine, I don’t blame you as your life is empty and lame that you so dwell on mine and my loved ones with so much time and energy, my life is full and beautiful isnt it?? And the narcissist whom i scared so much with my talents, beauty and ambition, I scared you so much, your weakness has now been revealed! How very weak you are hiding behind a fake masculinity that belittling women is your Forte, such a shame and misfortune!

In the end I’d like to thank you both! I was always strong, now I am even stronger then I ever imagined πŸ’ͺ I am a fighter and a winner!

Red Velvet πŸ’‹πŸ”₯ Written By Nichole Sulpizio xo

She opens the door

Dark lounge

Slowly she walks

Through the crowd

The music plays


Sensual sounds


Mimicking moans in her ears

As if people are climaxing

Sensuality fills the air

She sits down on a velvet cushioned couch

Tosses back her long, black lace gown

Glimpse of her smooth bare legs

Blueberry scent

As she tosses back her soft brown hair

Away from her delicate face

Cherry lips πŸ’‹

She lights a cigarette 🚬

Deeply she inhales

The bartender

Hands her a cocktail



She exhales

Gently she whispers

Thank you, Darling

She glimpses around the room


But stale

It’s him


Taking her in

Eyes lock

She prays he doesn’t speak

Tasty is he

Decant like a buttercream icing treat

Come here

She demands with her eyes

Walking toward her


Suit and tie

Sweat and musk

She longs to taste him

Kissing his lips

Touching his tongue

Buttons come undone

His and hers

Music still plays

There bodies sway

She craves him

He pays her tab

They walk hand in hand

To the yellow cab

With blinking lights

In the cold night

The plaza only one block away

In the exhaust filled city

New York

Lights and bay

Copyright Β© 2022 Nichole Sulpizio
All Rights Reserved

Feeling The Passion Like A Fire In My Soul πŸ”₯πŸ’‹

Never let a moment go by where you are afraid to speak, breathless and passionate moments ✨️ say what you need to say, feel how you need to feel and never be ashamed of the fire inside!

I don’t believe that everyone is passionate I believe you either are or your not! But, I believe that writers and musicians and artists have a special fire inside and it comes out in there creativity!

My body and soul is exploding with mixed emotions and I am letting them be revealed to the world and myself as I watch my life through the hard times and the good times Excell!

Live and Love with all that you are! ❀️ And don’t be afraid to say what you need too! Nor be afraid to be who you where meant to be…a STAR 🌟 Go to my site the song will play there! Enjoy πŸ˜‰

Coffee, Stained Glass And A Writers Thoughts xo πŸ’‹ Written By Nichole Sulpizio

Thinking about life, love, family!
Praying in this shity time we are in, I stay humble, kind and forgiving πŸ™
Believing there is a difference in making a mistake, be granted forgiveness verses not practicing what you preach and keeping things in a premeditated state!
Not taking time for granted and engulfing myself with loved ones because no day is certain!
It’s not who or what you portray to the world its who you are when noone is watching, all about the soul baby! Remember God is listening, he hears the whispers and conversations!
Not hesitating on saying what you need too meaning go with gusto in all areas of your life as you can’t say it when your gone!
As I go about my day I have to focus on not getting stuck in the mud but living for the magic I am trying to create even if it takes awhile to get there because mundane is just not how I was created to live!
Just a coffee and a writers words looking out a stained glass window this morning πŸŒ„ while I work!

Copyright Β© 2022 Nichole Sulpizio
All Rights Reserved

Happy Thursday πŸ’‹

First I’d like to thank, “The war at home and Narc Wise” for these on point and factual truths about life and living with a narcissist! See pics below ❀️

Unfortunately, for me, I’ve had the unpleasurable experience of living with a narcissist! I was able to control my sanity while living in survival mode! This is not typical for most and although hard you question everything and anything, therfore, nothing seems real! Anyone who knows what narcissistic abuse feels like will tell you it’s a constant war between reality and survival mode and remembering what’s right or wrong and staying in touch with yourself while being abused! All I can say was it was a fight for my life, and while working and raising kids I had to maintain my focus and not lose myself in the crazy and it was crazy, painfully such! More on that later!

For now, looking back, I was glad that my strong will for life and for my dreams helped keep me going and if I can offer advice to anyone suffering any abuse, whether physical and or emotional or mental find someone to confide in and let them help you to safety as you won’t really see the repercussions of what abuse does to your brain until you leave! There will be some PTSD and for me it’s been an ongoing feeling of indecisiveness even down to what I eat each day something so minuscule is so heavy for someone who’s reality was tested daily!

Don’t, let anyone tell you how to live your life you have to live your life on your own terms! Its imperative in this short life but you also have to get rid of the naysayers, the haters, you have to get rid of those in your life that thrive on drama and those that try to control your life such as the narcissist! The narcissist used to tell me all the time when I would express how I wanted to live my life, what I saw for my life, and the dreams that I had for my life, he use to state and i quote, “I would never make it without him”! Well, he is eating his words now! Since leaving him, I have opened my own business, I have doubled my income in less than a year I live in peace and tranquility I have returned to what normal is in a relationship and in life in general! And as my buisness grows it will be lucrative! I have healthy, happy kids and a family that lives in peace and unison all together! So when he quoted I WOULDN’T MAKE IT WITHOUT HIM it was actually the opposite, I WOULDN’T MAKE IT WITH HIM!!

Happy Thursday Everyone! Live, Love and Never have regrets! πŸ’‹

Happy Monday Bloggers β€οΈ

Sharing more quotes from a very on point site based in the miserable world of narcissistic relationships! Thank you Narc Wise!! 🌎

Sometimes when I view them I get that reminding twinge of nausea reliving the feeling of a unhappy, ill normal home and toxic relationship.

But, I feel as sicken as that past was for me I have also gained knowledge and strength of what I learned, whom I have become, and how powerful I am! And in turn want to continue focusing on the healing and life i have before me! And in turn helping others stuck in that suffocating feeling of regret and fear that life will slip away and they will face there death bed with a heart full of pain and regret πŸ’” 😒

Slowly I will bring into focus not only my passionate poems ✨️ but my thirst for helping others in similar situations get out safely and gain the strength to do so!

I am not certified in counseling and or am suggesting that in any way shape or form that I am. I am solely basing this on years of my life wasted with a narcissistic man who treated me one minute like I was the most valued diamond ( a trophy wife) whom he could buy and at the same time would devalue me and discredit me in order to keep possession of me! See this is a prime example of a narcissist, looking for approval and recognition from the same person you want to discredit and devalue because they lack self esteem and use manipulation as control! Doing this to me was one thing flipping the switch and adding my kids into this qrotesge endveor is another! Two out of 3 of my kids saw into this fake Jekyll and Hyde situation and one feels as I see it pity, as so to speak. He feels sorry for him in some ways as he feels he lost a whole family (as if treating a family abusively gives you any form of right) This kind hearted child of mine witnessed and experienced the abuse as well, but, shortly as he moved out early! By the way point in case was also at the hands of this narcissistic man and cost me a pretty penny to set my son up when he felt he couldn’t come home and was told not to even come home for Christmas which i will embark on later as well as the mere thought of this past makes me want to vomit aggressively! Narcissist are good at playing the victim in every situation which I will embark on later too. Let me point out this is NOT there father as we had no kids together and these are NOT his grandchildren whom he keeps himself attached, he was someone in my life for several years whom never earned these rights biologically or otherwise and really needs to move on and create his own family not hitched still with mine. There REAL father and I have a bond even though we are divorced we created a beautiful family and we still till this day share in that and always will! The narcissist needs to tuck his tail between his legs stop feeling sorry for himself and move on and leave my family alone!

I am not sure if I will start another blog on this topic or purely add this in to this one along with poetry. But, whatever I do I hope to help someone out there realize life is too short and noone can control your life, and if you feel like you have to constantly record things to prove your not crazy, or your family tells you that your not the same since being with someone, if your in denial when friends and or family tell you that your being controlled or manipulated and you calmly lie to save yourself from embrassment, and or you have lost your self, job, possessions and have changed solely for this person and constantly are walking on eggshells then you just may be dealing with narcissistic abuse!

It’s a dark world, it’s a narcissistic world, and IT IS ABUSE!

As a certified medical assistant I know what it does, psychologically and physically to the mind and body as I am slowly recovering 2 years later.

I hope to help others out there and maybe save someone! This life is too short to waste and i wasted too much time, time i can not get back however my future is bright, calm and full of possibilities now since leaving behind the demonic human i gave years tooπŸ™