Loving everything that sparkles, is glitzified and shines in a reality type of life!
Hi my name is nikki my nickname is sparkles. I am a glitzy fun loving mother of three wonderful children and a glammy mom-mom to three beautiful grandbabies. My life and heart are full! My daddy is still my world! My education is a certified medical assistant and i love the color pink my favorite holidays are Halloween, 4th of July, Christmas. I love God and life! These are the hardest years and the best years i just want to live life to the fullest! :)
Something different coming from me today as I purged out the demonic human beings I have known in the past with minds so twisted and hearts cold and dead, the words flowed like a river from my mouth to this page like I saw each one and cursed there demonic existence! In a lifetime I have known 3 not one more worse then the other but all psychopathic on some level. Hold onto your seat and enjoy 😉
There names a curse
She witnesses them as they are casted into the inferno 🔥
Praying they be painfully scorched
There agony like music to her ears
The years wasted on the unworthy
Her once crippling sympathy
To pity them and engage in time with them
Left behind taunting images
Of diseased ridden
So cold beings
She takes a deep breath
And purges the bastards once known to her
There blackened souls
Praying for redemption
Smelling of burnt flesh
Decaying in a unmarked grave
From years of hearts so frigid and minds so twisted
Everyone on here has witnessed and watched me evolve and grow from the narc relationship I was in and left 2 years ago! Life went from torment and crazy and toxic to beautiful and successful and happy and calm!
I have a successfully running buissness and I have kids that are happier in their home, living peacefully and without any issues! Home is finally a peaceful tranquil, NORMAL environment!
My future plan is to embark on narcissism fully and to possibly speak on it as I’d like to help those out there suffering the same toxic demise I was! Statistics show most will never escape! I am a strong willed individual who maintained my strength and clarity during the abuse! It’s not easy to leave but when you have confidence and love yourself you will leave anyone whom does not treat you with respect and kindness! My goal is to educate and help someone else who is going through abuse!
Hope this motivates you the way it does me each and every morning 🌄 to achieve my goals!
To the narcissist!
You said I couldn’t do it, you said, I’d never make it! I am relentless. I am driven, and I am coming after everything you said I couldn’t have!
Let me tell you this, I have everything I need! My success is my insanity and it keeps me up at night pushing, pushing 💪 me to the top!
I have a harmonious home, a great start to a successful career, my own business, successful, thriving, happy children! A loving, gentle, passionate man who showed me unconditional love! I have everything you said I would never have! I not only beat you, I WON! I HAVE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE THAT I NEED!
Thank you for being a screw up! I hope someday you change your ways, i don’t wish harm i already got even! See, i was a fighter, that fighter mentality was something in me that scared the shit out of you! Thats why you tried to control me, and when you realized you couldn’t, it made you more angry and that anger motivated me to get so angry i left you right where you belonged in your misery and desperation! Life is too short to be miserable, and no one should ever give up anything in their life for someone else’s dreams or love! How far I have come!
Maybe this speal will touch and / or push someone else to do what they need to do! And someday I will speak to the world as a motivational speaker and I will help those who are like me! See probably something else you didn’t know about me, another dream of mine! Ha, but what did you know about me anyway 😏 😅
2 years ago this beautiful and powerful song set me free!
I heard these words and a pain shot through my whole body and brought me to my knees in tears! I will never forget! What was worse is my family couldn’t take anymore and noone was holding back on telling me what they where witnessing and they wanted the real me back!
Its in fear that we find strength 💪 and it’s in pain we find courage!
I left a narcissistic relationship and in the midst of mind controlling tactics I never allowed him to control my own thoughts and desires and decisions like most do! God was in the driver seat and my heart too strong to ever wane from my own identity!
Today looking back I wish I wouldn’t have waited so long! I have my own business and it’s growing, my children are healthier and happier and free to live and speak and be teenagers and accepted as such in my new relationship! There is no crazy just tranquility! And I now remember what communication is after years of not being able to express and communicate as it was shunned! I am relearning trust and it is a beautiful thing! 😍
Wishing all my fellow bloggers and Healthy and Happy New Year ❤
Make everyday count I lost years that I will never regain, life is precious treat it as such! The rewards are endless not always easy, I won’t proclaim easy, however, I will proclaim Healthy, Happy and mostly NORMAL!
As a writer we are fuled by thoughts and feelings and emotions! Both past, present and future! My words purely express my deepest emotions! Never sorry for my words as the past made me sorry for feeling and has taught me many lessons…writers understand the fire of a inspiration and writing will always be the biggest part of me! Only I need to understand the significance and passion of my heart and soul