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My name is nichole my family and friends refer to me as princess :), nikki , and sparkles! 🌸 I wear glitter everything and nothing shines more then a beautiful array of sparkles..I love to shimmer and shine and light up the world!!πŸ’‹ Now who wouldn’t want a little sparkle in there life πŸ’– I also have been called recently, Angel and The Italian princess as well as Jersey!!

Today i am at the young age of 49 okay so that’s middle age but 40 something in 2020 is young, hip, fulfilling, stressful and chaotic, but that,s okay everyday is a blessing! My kids are grown and i am ready to have some fun!! Life is beautiful although it comes with many obstacles, challenges, and immense struggles but mostly and importantly life is full of rewards. Myself i went back to school in my 30’s to earn a degree in the medical field. After countless hours of studying with a school age son and two toddlers I became a certified medical assistant and worked in dermatology for over 8 years. I assisted in surgical procedures and met some wonderful patients. I can honestly say it is amazing how your patients become such a part of you and your life, they touch and embrace you daily it is a very rewarding career. Loving and leaving this career was a very hard decision one which i had to make after a lot of thought, consideration, and circumstances that were out of my control. But more on that later. I have three beautiful children and three of the most precious grand babies! I’am the oldest of 5 siblings. Some of which make life so much better and are there if i need them and likewise. One brother and 3 sisters, many wonderful nieces and nephews, Godchildren, and so many and i mean MANY extending family as of a Italian descent, there are so many cousins and second cousins i could write a page on just that. God has blessed me. I also love the color pink, love pizza, fine red wine, sunflowers and my dad. In my spare time i enjoy writing poetry and blogging. Writing has become one of the strongest passions i have ever had!

My Oldest son is 26 he is not only successful but strong, intelligent, and a handsome man who also happens to be a wonderful father. This boy i raised has became this man. In the blink of a eye i went from changing diapers to him receiving his bachelor’s to become a investment banker. Obtaining a job straight out of college with a huge firm..At this time he is raising a school age son along with a preschool daughter and a newborn with the help of his girlfriend Emily. My son is truly success at its finest. I am a proud mommy to say the least!

My second son is almost 20. He is a wonderful, beautiful young man. He has had to work very hard to achieve his goals he has severe ADHD making things very challenging for not only him but the family. It has been a long hard road and one we are still riding. ADHD shows no mercy thus one of the reasons i left my career. More on that later as well. If i can say one thing with the heartbreak that ADHD can cause my son is much more then ADHD . He is charismatic and loving and his goal is to own his own business he has thrifty knowledge on buying, selling, trading, i forsee a luderative business in his future. He is also a self taught guitar player and that just blows me away his talent is unbelievable. And let it be known when he smiles and is happy it fulfills my heart.

Then there is my little pretty princess my only daughter. She is a angel and 18 living in florida working in health and wellness as well as attending college to become both a nurse and possibly a physician. She is intelligent and wise above her years she went from sophomore year to senior passing over junior year with honors she works very hard to uphold a high GPA. My daughter is about success and academics and as many sports as she can play. Since she was 5 she has wanted to be a surgeon i can see that the path she is on is one of success and admiration.

My grand babies are 7 and almost 5 as well as the beautiful new addition little Wyatt ahh let me say they are the epitome of perfection! My life is full of joy since God blessed me with being a mom-mom.

We have a dog named harley old man that is closing in at 14. Needless to say i’am not a big dog lover but i am however a big animal lover.

My goal for this blog is to talk about life, love, divorce, career challenges, kids with challenges, esp. but not limited to ADHD. Being 40 middle age but fun, flirty, fantastic, a working mother and just holding up in today’s balancing act juggling all of the above. There are also many more topics, life experiences some good and some that will definitely intrigue you. This is my first time sharing my life i hope to take you on this journey with me. Hang on tight and enjoy the ride.

Bastards Written By Nichole Sulpizio πŸ”₯

Something different coming from me today as I purged out the demonic human beings I have known in the past with minds so twisted and hearts cold and dead, the words flowed like a river from my mouth to this page like I saw each one and cursed there demonic existence! In a lifetime I have known 3 not one more worse then the other but all psychopathic on some level. Hold onto your seat and enjoy πŸ˜‰

There names a curse

Hex

She witnesses them as they are casted into the inferno πŸ”₯

Praying they be painfully scorched

There agony like music to her ears

The years wasted on the unworthy

Pyscopaths

Her once crippling sympathy

To pity them and engage in time with them

Left behind taunting images

Of diseased ridden

So cold beings

She takes a deep breath

And purges the bastards once known to her

There blackened souls

Praying for redemption

Smelling of burnt flesh

Decaying in a unmarked grave

From years of hearts so frigid and minds so twisted

Grotesque are they

Purgatory would not suffice

She must be blinded for a moment

Eyes burn

Happily as she witnesses

A glimpse of there demise

While they dance with lucifer himself

Never to be forgiven

Sentenced to hell and death

She rubs her eyes

Blinks

Looks at them and grins

You poor bastards

She bites her lip

Chuckles just a bit

Karma πŸ’‹


Copyright Β© 2022 Nichole Sulpizio
All Rights Reserved

From Narc Wise ❀️ little truthful quotes I’d like to share after years of me living this hell! πŸ’‹

Everyone on here has witnessed and watched me evolve and grow from the narc relationship I was in and left 2 years ago! Life went from torment and crazy and toxic to beautiful and successful and happy and calm!

I have a successfully running buissness and I have kids that are happier in their home, living peacefully and without any issues! Home is finally a peaceful tranquil, NORMAL environment!

My future plan is to embark on narcissism fully and to possibly speak on it as I’d like to help those out there suffering the same toxic demise I was! Statistics show most will never escape! I am a strong willed individual who maintained my strength and clarity during the abuse! It’s not easy to leave but when you have confidence and love yourself you will leave anyone whom does not treat you with respect and kindness! My goal is to educate and help someone else who is going through abuse!

Happy Friday Bloggers ❀️

Solitary Rose 🌹 Written By Nichole Sulpizio

As she sits amoung the murky lake

Full of algae

Stillness

Aquatic

Suffocation of the summer sun

Yet cheerfully comforting

Light breeze amoung the trees

Full of life

Reminiscent

Each broad branch representing a new step

She is lost in the beauty

And haunted by the many paths she took to get here

The branches that broke beneath her during the storm

Fell with such force and demise

Not her

The wilted leaves that left such disdain in her mouth

Like a toxic dump

Smelling of rotten carcus and debris

The death of the past

Awaken to a new light

Like a solitary flower

Basken in the yellow hues

Fruitful and vivid

Swaying with the slightest breeze

Glorified

Capturing this moment

As it awaits the death of winters doom

Only to rise and shine again in springs dew

Like she

A solitary rose!!

Copyright Β© 2022 Nichole Sulpizio
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Sangria πŸ’‹ Written By Nichole Sulpizio πŸ”₯

Sangria

Taupe sand

Pale cream hint

In its golden glow

Steady waves crash against the rocks

Boldly

Her caramel hair blowing lightly

In the warm summer breeze

Coconut curls

Down her tanned back

Bronzed glow

As the sun sets in its dignity

The sand tickles her toes

Painted plum

Like the color of her wine

Dripping from her lips

Sweet berry breath

Inviting

She giggles

Licking her lips

As not to stain her gloss

Shining like the brightest star

In a night sky

Twinkling

Her eyes sparkle

Like the name she was given

Dreaming of his lips

Kiss

His hands slowly gazing her body

To her hips

In her summer dress

Above the knees

Floral

Tease

Of the diamond underneath

Drawing her body closer

Her curves

Mystic

He pulls her in

She feels his need

In his embrace

Firmly

Blushing

Escaping in her thoughts

As she melts away

In her sangria

Copyright Β© 2022 Nichole Sulpizio
All Rights Reserved

Happy Wed World 🌎 β€πŸ’‹

Hope this motivates you the way it does me each and every morning πŸŒ„ to achieve my goals!

To the narcissist!

You said I couldn’t do it, you said, I’d never make it! I am relentless. I am driven, and I am coming after everything you said I couldn’t have!

Let me tell you this, I have everything I need! My success is my insanity and it keeps me up at night pushing, pushing πŸ’ͺ me to the top!

I have a harmonious home, a great start to a successful career, my own business, successful, thriving, happy children! A loving, gentle, passionate man who showed me unconditional love! I have everything you said I would never have! I not only beat you, I WON! I HAVE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE THAT I NEED!

Thank you for being a screw up! I hope someday you change your ways, i don’t wish harm i already got even! See, i was a fighter, that fighter mentality was something in me that scared the shit out of you! Thats why you tried to control me, and when you realized you couldn’t, it made you more angry and that anger motivated me to get so angry i left you right where you belonged in your misery and desperation! Life is too short to be miserable, and no one should ever give up anything in their life for someone else’s dreams or love! How far I have come!

Maybe this speal will touch and / or push someone else to do what they need to do! And someday I will speak to the world as a motivational speaker and I will help those who are like me! See probably something else you didn’t know about me, another dream of mine! Ha, but what did you know about me anyway 😏 πŸ˜…

Affair Of The Heart ❀️ (D)

Written By Nichole Sulpizio πŸ’‹

She dreams of romance

Passionate kisses

His hand

Candlelight dinner plans

He strokes her hair

So soft and long

While singing and dancing

To their favorite slow song

Moonlight beaches

Soft sand

Pale cream

Walks in the park

City after dark

Sipping white wine

Lobster tails

Chocolate mouse

Buttery and sweet

Both a decant treat

Aphrodisiac

Gazing at her

He invites her to stay

Every night

To live this way

For the rest of her life!

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The Darkness πŸ’‹ Written By Nichole Sulpizio β€

The darkness came over her

In the brisk winter night

Haunting

Taunting her

Blinding her with agony

She is gasping for breath

Strangled

Suffocating

Shivering

Temperature sub zero

Icicles dangling from the branches

Shining slivers of glass

That could pierce through the skin

Like daggers

Visions of dripping blood

Frozen to stone

Invading her

Like a demon possessed

Fingertips blue

Delivering no oxygen

Bitter anguish

Hypothermia

Her last screams

Howling

Blood chilling

Watching her wounds

Empty like buckets of water

Onto the frozen ground below

Leaving her lifeless

In the darkness

πŸ’œπŸ’‹β€

Copyright Β© 2022 Nichole Sulpizio
All Rights Reserved

God’s Seal Of Approval ❀Written By Nichole Sulpizio

Heart displaced

Years lost in mourning

Agnoy she endured

Bruised

Bludgeoned

By liars and thieves

Disguised they wore capes

To hide there evil souls

Villains

Are they

Twisted, sicken minds

Grotesque

Vomit upon there names

For their disease, not worthy of forgiveness

Trying to break her

Jealous of her light

Piece by piece, they tried

While tears fell upon her cheeks

Burning her skin

Raw

Not knowing her power

And will

She would destroy even the strongest of they

Her spirt a sword

Gleaming

That could pierce

The heaviest of bricks

Striking

The blood trickles from there names

Cast into the fire

Singeing their memory

She basks in the light

While there screams echoing

Like music to her ears

The beauty of her new found life

Love

Like the taste of his first kiss

Sent from heaven above

He was

A superhero with a shell

That was found

And engraved with his fate

And hers

Sealed with God’s approval

Copyright Β© 2022 Nichole Sulpizio All Rights Reserved

Remembering ❀

2 years ago this beautiful and powerful song set me free!

I heard these words and a pain shot through my whole body and brought me to my knees in tears! I will never forget! What was worse is my family couldn’t take anymore and noone was holding back on telling me what they where witnessing and they wanted the real me back!

Its in fear that we find strength πŸ’ͺ and it’s in pain we find courage!

I left a narcissistic relationship and in the midst of mind controlling tactics I never allowed him to control my own thoughts and desires and decisions like most do! God was in the driver seat and my heart too strong to ever wane from my own identity!

Today looking back I wish I wouldn’t have waited so long! I have my own business and it’s growing, my children are healthier and happier and free to live and speak and be teenagers and accepted as such in my new relationship! There is no crazy just tranquility! And I now remember what communication is after years of not being able to express and communicate as it was shunned! I am relearning trust and it is a beautiful thing! 😍

Wishing all my fellow bloggers and Healthy and Happy New Year ❀

Make everyday count I lost years that I will never regain, life is precious treat it as such! The rewards are endless not always easy, I won’t proclaim easy, however, I will proclaim Healthy, Happy and mostly NORMAL!

AMEN!

Words Of Inspiration πŸ’‹ Written By Nichole Sulpizio

As a writer we are fuled by thoughts and feelings and emotions! Both past, present and future! My words purely express my deepest emotions! Never sorry for my words as the past made me sorry for feeling and has taught me many lessons…writers understand the fire of a inspiration and writing will always be the biggest part of me! Only I need to understand the significance and passion of my heart and soul

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