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My name is nichole my family and friends refer to me as princess :), nikki , and sparkles! 🌸 I wear glitter everything and nothing shines more then a beautiful array of sparkles..I love to shimmer and shine and light up the world!!πŸ’‹ Now who wouldn’t want a little sparkle in there life πŸ’– I also have been called recently, Angel and The Italian princess as well as Jersey!!

Today i am at the young age of 47 okay so that’s middle age but 40 something in 2020 is young, hip, fulfilling, stressful and chaotic, but that,s okay everyday is a blessing! My kids are grown and i am ready to have some fun!! Life is beautiful although it comes with many obstacles, challenges, and immense struggles but mostly and importantly life is full of rewards. Myself i went back to school in my 30’s to earn a degree in the medical field. After countless hours of studying with a school age son and two toddlers I became a certified medical assistant and worked in dermatology for over 8 years. I assisted in surgical procedures and met some wonderful patients. I can honestly say it is amazing how your patients become such a part of you and your life, they touch and embrace you daily it is a very rewarding career. Loving and leaving this career was a very hard decision one which i had to make after a lot of thought, consideration, and circumstances that were out of my control. But more on that later. I have three beautiful children and two of the most precious grand babies! I’am the oldest of 5 siblings. Some of which make life so much better and are there if i need them and likewise. One brother and 3 sisters, many wonderful nieces and nephews, Godchildren, and so many and i mean MANY extending family as of a Italian descent, there are so many cousins and second cousins i could write a page on just that. God has blessed me. I also love the color pink, love pizza, fine red wine, sunflowers and my dad. In my spare time i enjoy writing poetry and blogging. Writing has become one of the strongest passions i have ever had!

My Oldest son is 24 he is not only successful but strong, intelligent, and a handsome man who also happens to be a wonderful father. This boy i raised has became this man. In the blink of a eye i went from changing diapers to him receiving his bachelor’s to become a investment banker. Obtaining a job straight out of college with a huge firm..At this time he is raising a toddler and school age son with the help of his girlfriend Emily. My son is truly success at its finest. I am a proud mommy to say the least!

My second son is 18. He is a wonderful, beautiful young man. He has had to work very hard to achieve his goals he has severe ADHD making things very challenging for not only him but the family. It has been a long hard road and one we are still riding. ADHD shows no mercy thus one of the reasons i left my career. More on that later as well. If i can say one thing with the heartbreak that ADHD can cause my son is much more then ADHD . He is charismatic and loving and his goal is to own his own business he has thrifty knowledge on buying, selling, trading, i forsee a luderative business in his future. And let it be known when he smiles and is happy it fulfills my heart.

Then there is my little pretty princess my only daughter. She is a angel with a teenage attitude( yay 16). Both intelligent and wise above her years she went from sophomore year to senior passing over junior year with honors she works very hard to uphold a high GPA. My daughter is about success and academics and as many sports as she can play. Since she was 5 she has wanted to be a surgeon i can see that the path she is on is one of success and admiration.

My grand babies are 5 and almost 3 let me say they are the epitome of perfection! My life is full of joy since God blessed me with being a mom-mom.

We have a dog named harley amd two fish. Needless to say i’am not a big dog lover but i am however a big animal lover.

My goal for this blog is to talk about life, love, divorce, career challenges, kids with challenges, esp. but not limited to ADHD. Being 40 middle age but fun, flirty, fantastic, a working mother and just holding up in today’s balancing act juggling all of the above. There are also many more topics, life experiences some good and some that will definitely intrigue you. This is my first time sharing my life i hope to take you on this journey with me. Hang on tight and enjoy the ride.

A Bit Of Honesty In A Dishonest World πŸŒŽ

In life it is most important to stop the chatter of misunderstood voices…honesty is a rare commodity something most people lack! Right wrong or indifferent i pride myself on being completely honest even at the stake of falling down..

People can take a lot away from you in life but they can’t take away your soul! Having a good heart and a pure soul is the golden ticket in life…

I do wonder sometimes if we truly have complete control over our own lives or do we roll with the punches too much..we are so quick to please sometimes that we loose ourselves our dreams our hearts in the shuffle..

Pondering today where I got lost in the shuffle! πŸ€”

Rectifying it may be harder then I once thought ❀

TOUCHING ON A TOUCY SUBJECT πŸ€£

I am coming to learn that unless you are a writer or a musician or an artist you can’t quite understand sensuality or passion or that words and lyrics are the very core of your being…that you are always in a heightened sense of awareness of all feelings and emotions..

Keeping things classy and tasteful not trashy are of utmost importance..

However, also recognizing that because you place emphasis on passion that you are not writing pornography. You are really writing the very essence of sexuality that all humans think and feel but are afraid to discuss, admit or touch upon as if it is something to fear or feel disgraced upon..we all are and can be very passionate sexual beings …the ones mortified are the ones afraid of getting in touch with the feelings they feel burning inside there bodies ..

Look at Maddonna one of the greatest artists of all times proving once again why she one of the most recognized artists of all times! She is artistic and expressive …unafraid… to me this beautiful!

This song is one of my favorites by her but probably offends most! While I pride myself on decency and am tasteful, classy, passionate in my writing I do hold with it truth and acknowledgment of the fire that burns in all of us! I am unafraid!!

So my opinion is live life expressing yourself…keep yourself honest and kind and classy never be trashy or cruel ..but don’t hinder the very core being you are ..live your life for you not anyone else! Stay true to yourself and those whom should be in your life will be in your life and those who can’t understand you or are intimated by you well that’s there problem …just be you!

And one other thing that may be slightly off topic but holds weight…I always believe in passion, love, and fate β™₯ when you doubt these things even during trying times you only short yourself! And stop yourself from being where you where written to be! You may even short someone else πŸ˜‰ just saying …

Kisses πŸ’‹

Clarity πŸ’‹

Written By Nichole Sulpizio ❀

Written In All My Truths πŸ’‹

Pushed to the limit

Ulitmate test

She struggling at best

With the darkness

Bestowed upon her

Wallowing in the haunted shadows

That frighten her

Lost control

Where is the clarity

Blinded by his passion

Her body yearns for his touch

Like a poison you drink

Knowing the demise

Screaming to him

Echoing

Repeatedly

For him to listen

But her voice muffled

In all her confusion

He listens to his own beat

The drum in his head

Pareiodlia

Struggling

As if to say

Run away

The other don’t let go

Get her

In the midst they lie

Naked in there empty beds

Separated

Heartache

Tossing and turning

By the torment

Not exploring the possibilities

Of friends becoming lovers

The covers silent

Instead of the growing moans

Climaxing

Alone

She screams louder

Falling upon deaf ears

While he masks his pain

Ending up without the girl

He wanted to claim

Where is the Clarity

Not just for her

For him

The music grows silent

The poet Puts down her pen

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Two πŸ’• Hearts Written By Nichole Sulpizio πŸ’‹ Written for RD and JF all my love πŸ’“

Confusion

Illusions

Chaos

Immense pain inside

Torture

The heart split in two

Bleeding

Profusely

She not knowing what to do

The fear of making a mistake

She runs into both arms

Praying they will keep her from harm

And making a decision

Days and weeks pass

They pushing her to decide

She can’t hide

She loves them both

Who knew she would hold 2 hearts

In her hand

Breaking them

Doing things

Neither wants to do

For they say they can no longer stay

But can’t let go nor walk away

Loving her so much

Passion overflows

And it shows

When she spends the night

Both intoxicated by lust

Moaning

She trusts her heart

Will break

Never to heal

Because both complete her

As she

Feels the beating of 2 hearts πŸ’•

She is broken πŸ’”

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TRUTHS TONIGHT πŸ’‹

From thought to here …straight from the heart ❀

If you hold my hand through the worst
I will give you my best

If amoung the noise and confusion you hear my heart
Listen to it

A story is unfolding
The end to be determined
Patience is a virtue

There is risk in everything
But if you don’t risk everything
You lose more then what you thought

Play life like you would chess
Keep a poker face
And well ….play to win!

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A kiss is NOT just a kiss πŸ˜˜πŸ’‹ Written By Nichole Sulpizio πŸ’‹

A Fleeting Thought πŸ’‹

A kiss is not just a kiss

Kissing is the exchange of heart and soul ❀
The softness of tongues touching
Flickering
In unison
Hearts dancing
Passion erupting
The soul blissfully engulfed
In joy
A kiss without passion
Is a crime
And only those who lack passion
Face this terrible fate
Locked in a cell
Of lost pleasure
Unbeknownst to the source
Denied desires of the flesh
Lacking a painful existence
Existing in a state of non arouseal
Where the body has no source of fulfillment
The heart no nourishment
And joy never presenting itself to the very core of one’s soul

A kiss is not JUST a kiss 😘❀πŸ”₯

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Web Of Lies Written By Nichole Sulpizio πŸ’‹

The pain in his eyes showed
The glow and sparkle diminished
Caught between his past and present
Knowing he craved her attention
Wanting to explore her even more
But not knowing how to let go of the chains that bind him
His brain in a haze
By her magic
The lust in her eyes
Was no disguise
The inferno between them
Could she untangle him from this dark web of lies
That he had bound himself too
Guilt and remorse weighing upon the chains
Will she kiss him goodbye
One last time
Leaving her scent upon his collar
That will haunt him forever
Tragically in regret

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Summer Is Almost Here Written By Nichole SulpizioπŸ’‹

This thought just came to me literally 5 minutes ago while I looked at the beautiful sunshine this morning…writing it here first ..😊
A pretty moments thought brought me to this!

Summer is almost here

Waves crashing
Foamy
Your beer in hand
While we walk together in the soft sea sand
Summer songs 🎡
All night long
Under the pale moonlight
Kissing under the stars
Losing ourselves
Finding out just who we are
We sing and sway
To the very beat of our bodies
In unison
Waking to the early morning dew
Sipping our black coffee
Baby, I am ready for this
With you
Summer is almost here πŸ’‹

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