Nostalgia Of Summer Nights!

What about summer nights is it that makes us nostalgic of childhood memories? Do we feel young, alive? Is it it the city lights, the ocean waves, the sand in our toes? Or the noise of the carnivals, boardwalks, bright lights, and amusements? Maybe it is the sound of the kids playing after dusk, and the ice cream truck selling ice cream at 9 pm. Maybe we reminisce about the kisses under the stars with butterflies in our stomach waiting for that kiss. Maybe that is what makes us feel young, untamed. Maybe that is what summer nostalgia is all about.

These thoughts bring us to those nights of sitting on the back of a pick up truck in shorts and a tank top, playing music as loud as it will go dancing on the hood! Bronzed skin, glossy lips, the smell of tanning lotion, and if your my age, well my favorites back then, electric youth perfume and exclamation perfume! πŸ™‚ Or the smell of a summer storm approaching when the wind picks up and you hear the thunder roar. Oh those summer nights!!

I miss the feeling of being lost in ourselves,the freedom of no responsibility, and staying awake all night long! Summer nights still make me smile and reflect. It will always be time of happiness, and joy. Even at 46, i can reflect, remember, and recreate the most memorable time of year besides christmas.


To All My Mom and Dad Bloggers out there!

Does life seem like one big frenzy? There is no job out there harder nor more rewarding then being a parent! Sometimes, i wonder if will ever get things done. I tell myself take a breath and calm myself reminding me that it will all work out. But it is one thing to say it, another to convince myself. All you bloggers out there that are full time parents will relate and understand. And that goes for you FULL time step parents too! Kudos to you who step into the role of a full time parent. Kudos to you again, who love, support, run, lose sleep over, protect, share wisdom, discipline and guide those that are not biologically yours, roles and shoes you fill willingly without reservation, for that makes you a parent. I call it parent by choice!

So to ALL my parents, do you ever feel like you will never be able to take five? Because when you think for that remote second you actually may, you remember: The laundry, The grocery list,The dentist, The doctor, The vet, Homework, Bills you have to pay, Sports, Work (let us not forget our paying jobs) Dinner, Cleaning the house, All the cuts, bruises, scratches, colds, flus, Broken bones, broken hearts, and my favorites, MOM I NEED, MOM I WANT, MOM RIDE HERE, THERE EVERYWHERE! And you dads out there that seconds you as well. Meanwhile, you get that lump in your throat and in the pit of your stomach and forget how to focus. Your head is spinning and your tripping over your own feet. You think to yourself am i human? Because when we are overwhelmed, we are on autopilot!

However, when i feel this surge of panic, i step back briefly and think to myself. Someday, this will just be a memory of my best years. Someday, i will have a empty nest. Now, i do not want to think about that yet, for now i keep the running shoes on praying i can complete each need and want that my kids have with in reason. And someday all of us mommies and daddies, will look back and see these lives we raised turn into successful, loving, adults….AND THEN… DRUM ROLL PLEASE πŸ™‚

We can laugh when THEY SAY, MOM, DAD, HELP! I am overwhelmed, how did you do it all?? MY KIDS, need, want, are sick, what do i do?? Just smile and say and YOU WILL SAY, and i quote….YOU WILL GET THOUGH IT!! πŸ™‚ Then be prepared…Then comes the grand Babies and it starts all over….just in a different, best way possible πŸ˜‰ xo

Awareness On Concussions!

Hey everyone, just want to bring some awareness to the table for those not in the medical field. I speak first hand, honestly, without reservation, concussions are serious. Speaking from a present situation, this is my first concussion and it is totally inhibiting my life. I want to spread awareness on this condition briefly and honestly. On the outside i may look okay, normal, perfect, you may not see injury with your eyes. You wont see bandages, blood, bruises, BUT that is only a misconception, do not let that mislead you. The injury is on the inside the part you can not see. This is a brain injury. It is causing havoc and fear for me and others in my shoes. Please be kind, understanding to those with this condition. You can not see our injury but it is there and it is horrific and painful. Speaking currently with a concussion, there is nothing normal about this. There is constant headaches, nausea, slurred, delayed thoughts and speech. There are wrong words and cognitive issues. There is an intolerance to heat and cold, to music, screens, laptops, lights, and tv and stress. Please be understanding no one asks for this and we can not control or alter it, we live with it and hope it soon will end. You do not realize how tough things are, how they are magnified, with a concussion until you have one. I want to be me again! Loud music, bright lights, and no nausea to fight! If i play music it must be low and for a short period. Screen time brief, and with consequences. Just some awareness to those who never had this happen, and if you know someone who does be patient with them. Personally, i hope no one has to know. I will survive this, but for now i hope to heal quickly! Night Bloogers πŸ™‚

Love Myself some 80’s 90’s music to put me in a good mood!

Only you 40 somethings will understand this! Tonight, i feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, and when i do, i go back to some of my favorite years. My Youth! High school was fun for me. I made some wonderful friends ,some that are still in my life! Tara!! πŸ™‚ Lasting memories that i will have forever!! But , My junior year was the best year of my life, besides having my kids and grand kids, it was one of happiest years of my life! 1989 to 1990 God it just makes me smile! So much fun!! So tonight when i feel the weight of life weighing on me, i play a little soave, and coro and noel. Again you 40 somethings will know and if not remember, soave, crying over you, coro, where are you tonight my love, and noel, silent morning. and lets not forget cynthia and johnny O dream boy and dream girl. And who can forget chris isaak. Ahhhhh…relief and who can forget SNAP?? πŸ˜‰ Thank you 17 and thank you to all those friends that made my high school years the best!! I love and miss you guys!!!!

Only a mom can understand! A mothers chaotic world!

We start our days bright and early, 5 am to be exact. We have kids, pets, jobs, parents, appointments, phone calls, life is so chaotic we never stop. Does not matter if we are dealing with diapers, all night feedings, or toddlers to teens. Moms are superheros to our kids, and we have to wear that cape proud! We pamper, love and realize our kids are our world! We may be exhausted, want to cry, relax at times but to be a good mom means countless nights of no sleep, from birth to eternity aka from all night feedings at birth to staying up all night making sure they are where they are supposed to be. Being a mom, means no sleep, no money because we give it all away to give our kids, πŸ™‚ and constant worry. Does not matter there age the reality is they can be 2,10, 15, 18, or in there 20’s, though there 50’s they are our babies, we made them, we love and live for them! The biggest accomplishment in life is loving, and having successful, kids and if if i have done that in my chaotic world it was completely worth it, because those kids made my life maybe chaotic but complete!

Never Be Sorry For :

Be Yourself, there is one like you and you are unique. Be who you are and be proud of what you are, screw society, never impress anyone BUT YOU! If you look in the mirror and you like what is looking back be proud no one else can see your intentions if they are indeed truthful take pride in that truth. No mask, do not be fake, speak your mind and be different, its okay to be different. That makes you well, YOU! Be the real you, if someone does not love you for you, they need not be in your life, live for your beliefs not the ones others think you need to believe in! Refuse to settle whether in a relationship, career, speak your mind!

Follow your dreams, believe and trust in them do not ignore fate. Do not live with regret or fear. If you love someone say it, say it LOUD! Say it so loud that the world can hear it πŸ™‚ if you have a dream that someone belittles or tries to sabotage rid them of your life. Negativity will ruin even the strongest making them wilt and fail, be positive. Never let anyone tell you that your dreams are wrong, if someone tries to control your dreams, holds you back, makes it hard for you to succeed, rid them of your life . Never live someones life, live yours!

Be grateful, be strong, confident but meek. Do not boast, let your actions speak for you. Seeing success verses hearing it speaks louder. Mediate, eat well, okay most days that is. Never deny yourself anything food, love, comfort, closeness, fun, everything in moderation as long as it can not hurt you or others is good for you and your well being. Pray, get a massage, exercise, kiss someone for hours, call a friend, roll in the grass, listen to the rain, smile. Love those in your life no matter who says you should not, do not let anyone dictate the heart the heart is not the mind it speaks the truth!!!

If a relationship is based on fear, is toxic, prevents you from being you,it can be a spouse, a significant other, a friend, a parent, leave, rid them of your life. No one has the right to control you, make you fear or apologize. Do not let toxic in if you have toxic and can not be freely you without reservation, rid them for they are toxic. Be with those who want you to succeed, let you live your truth, support and admire who you are. Truth will always win. Jealously will lose. Love those who push you to succeed, who celebrate in your accomplishments, who smile because you smile. If you have this in a spouse, significant other, parent or friend, hold them close and never let them go, for they are the diamond in the rough! And as i like to say both will sparkle and thrive!!!

40 is Fabulous!! ;)

Whoever stated the term age is just a number was a 100 percent accurate. We know 40 as the so called dreaded , “MIDDLE AGE”. The midlife crisis years, yes, i once at 39 cried knowing i was turning the dreaded 40, however, the 40’s have been good to me. Sure, i have the normal everyday maladies that each one of us in the human race have however, there is a certain aura that differs in your middle years that helps to change who you are and what you see as important. Sure, these years we may see our first gray hairs, maybe some of us see a wrinkle or two, then there are the lovely mammograms and colonoscopies,, ” Oh what a delight!” It also means we are half way in the grave, half way to 80, oh my did i just say that? πŸ™‚ But brush it off, 40 is FABULOUS!!!!

As i see it and some may beg to differ, i see confidence, security, we know what we will tolerate, who we are, and what we will not tolerate. We stand proud of beliefs and stand firm. We do not feel the need to impress anyone including but not limited to family, friends, and better yet men! We spent our 20’s trying to impress the world, some of us focused on families, careers and trying to maintain our youth and grow up at the same time. Our 30’s we married possibly divorced and remarried. We started to learn our mistakes and not repeat them, raised our kids and hung onto the years we regretted not making certain moves or trying something new, or settling because we thought we had too. But hang on if your not there or you are 40, one bit of advice hang on and enjoy the ride 40 something is a adventure embrace it, love it, learn from it. 40 is fun, Fantabulous, flirty, and unforgettable!!

In these years your self esteem is at all time high! Your probably settled in your career and if your not go get it, i am learning its never to late. It is only too late when we die!! At this age we pick our friends forget about facebook, social media, aka how many likes, how many friend requests, at this age we pick are friends and hold them close, we also find the ones we let slip away. We learn what matters, and are aware time is precious and not given. We do not waste time on nonsense, and people who are not worth it. We also learn what truly matters and what is superficial and not worth holding onto. Let me provide a example. My family and close friends know this story. Here it goes.

When i was 17 years old i was a senior in high school. I was picked by a modeling agency in NY to model swimsuits. I was flabbergasted, delighted, insanely excited about the possibilities this door would open into. Sadly, my mother cut this dream off before i had a chance to explore them. POOF my dreams went down the toilet, i held this against her pretty much until now. And i even still sort of still do, she did not let me pursue who i was and what i was meant to do, however , although with much arguing from my father in my corner she did not budge, If you knew my mother you would understand. After she did this i settled for one trip of modeling in a mall fashion show, did a modeling video, and became a short lived hooters girl, and then said screw it. But that does not matter now i realize at 40 yes, although some dreams some things get screwed up we are who we are and no one and nothing can stop us if we want something. My point is at 17 and even up until now modeling, and looks while important are superficial, at 40 we are established, secure, confident, and even if we cant wear that tiny bikini anymore, we turn just as many heads, if not a whole lot and did i say ALOT more heads when we enter a room not because our midriff is out but because our beauty is in our face, our demeanor, our confidence, our sexuality, and knowledge and experience, our younger counter parts wish like we once did that they rocked the confidence that being in your 40’s means!! I never felt so beautiful then i do now, and i am sure you 40 somethings agree, these are the best years enjoy them, embrace them!! BECAUSE…..