The clock says at this very moment that it is 8:41 pm. So i think to myself, okay choices, decisions, do i get ready for bed because 5 am comes quickly, or do i try to take a minute to savor some time of this day/night that i will never get back. As a mom of 3 time is of the essence. I am a working mommy of a 23 yr old and two teens. I thought the toddler years where hard, let me tell you that was a cake walk compared to 2 teens 18 months apart. I work part time but my full time job is, RUNNING non stop for two teens that require my full attention! I’am as you other FULL time parents are and i quote, a taxi cab, a doctor, a therapist, a maid, and then some. Between all there appointments, schooling, activities, counseling, i feel like i need a vacation! Since vacations are hard to come by, well, because us parents can not just get up and go, because that requires babysitters, dog sitters and fish sitters as well as some other small creatures. I light candles, drink red wine and listen to music at 9 pm 🙂 I say take me away until that alarm goes off at 5 am to start the process all over again! With that said i would not trade the moments my kids say, mom, you are the best, you always are there! I Love you! And They all do, everyday! 🙂 From the 23yr old to the teens those words get me though the stress, the tears, the tiredness, and the worry! Because as a mommy, all you do is worry! And no amount of the most expensive wine can take the worry away from the love you have for your kids at any age!! Sometimes i wish i could go back to the toddler years so i could shield them from all the pain and the stress this world can give, but since i cant, i hope and pray that all the love and guidance i have shown them will be enough! And for me it is after 9 and that wine is soothing and the music is soothing and i think about the days events and tomorrows challenges and say, I CAN DO IT! It may not be easy, But I can do it, the same way i have for the last 23 years. Someday, i will miss it!! Someday this will all be memory and they will all be grown with kids of there own, and i will remember all those days i thought i would not make it another second, only to miss all the chaos and craziness that those beautiful kids of mine brought to my life! I love you, nicholas, dylan, mandy!